5 days left...

Today I'm driving down to pick up my dress for my brother's wedding. I'll be spending tonight at my Grandparents. I haven't seen them for a while so I'm really looking forward to spending some time there.

I don't know how people can stand being away from their "significant others." I have felt like the summer and being apart has been tearing me up inside. But maybe I'm just blowing everything out of proportion...

6 days left...

I had an emotional breakdown yesterday. Everything is catching up to me and I have a lot of pent up emotions. I was glad that I had my Daddy to talk to and was able to talk to Brandon after he got off work. It is amazing to have these two strong men in my life that I can rely on when I'm going through tough times. By the time I got calmed down and everything it was time for bed and I didn't blog.

It is really hard these last few days. I'm looking forward to seeing Brandon and spending time with him. I'm also looking forward to feeling his arms around me once again. The time apart has been way too long. I can't remember his arms around me or feel his kiss on my forehead any more.

Brandon has a hard time surprising me. Today, while skyping, he showed me the surprise that he has been working on to give me in August.

8 days left...

I've had a really busy day so far. I woke up and did some chores around Grandma's house. I vacuumed, cleaned the bathroom, picked fruit to take home, watered the yard, and helped Grandma wash the bedding and make the beds. Then I packed up my car after lunch and filled up my gas tank. Then I drove to the cemetery. I had decided to go visit Grandpa's grave. Grandma is moving and this might be the last time that I head out in that direction for a long time. One look at Grandpa's gravestone brought tears to my eyes that spilled out and ran down my cheeks. I stood there talking to God for a while and thinking about memories that I have of my Grandpa. Then I got into my car and drove home. It feels good to be home. I'm really glad that I had the opportunity to go keep Grandma company and help her out. Even though I had to give up some things, I will never regret giving my time to her. It was a huge blessing to me as well as to Grandma.

I think I may be the luckiest girl alive...

9 days left...

I feel a lot better today. I figured out some of the stuff that was causing my bad mood yesterday and I'm one step closer to dealing with it. Today is good. I feel very happy skyping with Brandon right now and knowing that he is there for me every day (both the good and the bad days.)

I'm going home tomorrow. Grandma is feeling much better and I'm so ready to see my family again. God is good like always and I know that he will help me through these last few days left.

My feet are happy...

10 days left...

There are some days that I wish I could do over again. Today was one of them. I was really bummed out today, you could call it depressed. Nothing Brandon said could bring me out of it. I haven't been this bummed for a really long time. Finally the depression lifted when I read my Bible in the late afternoon. I feel bad because I know that it hurt Brandon to see me so down in the dumps. But that's what love is, being there all the time even through the bad.

Lesson: Read your Bible, it prevents and solves a lot of issues.

11 days left...

Grandma had a good day today, the best one yet! That makes my day good. I didn't do much today but I did finish reading Mary Higgins Clark "Second Time Around." I dozed off a little this afternoon and then woke up and checked my texts. Brandon had texted me that he was on an hour break and we could talk if I wanted to. I checked the time of the text to find out that he sent it almost an hour before. I felt a little bummed that I missed the chance to talk and keep him company on his break. But he gets off work soon so we'll be able to talk tonight.

I think I'm getting a little stir crazy. Maybe I'll go swimming tomorrow...

12 days left...

Brandon and I had an amazing time skyping today. We talked about August and spending time together among other things. We had a lot of fun. I'm so excited that it's getting closer. We missed each other a lot today. I wanted to kiss him but I know that I'll have to wait since kissing the computer screen is dumb.