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We went to Bed, Bath and Beyond on Monday and got most of our registry done there. It was really fun. We still have to decide on what pots and pans to get. We are going to register at Target also.

We celebrated our six month anniversary yesterday. Brandon cooked me dinner and we hung out and studied together because I had a test today. I can't wait until we are married.

119 days left...

Brandon arrived late Thursday night. It is so good to be back together again. Yesterday we had an awesome time at California Adventure with friends. We got to see World of Color which was amazing. Then Brandon left on a little weekend trip/bachelor party for his best friend. It was really difficult to say good night and goodbye even though we'll see each other on Sunday. I'm so glad that we have next week together.

I still haven't heard from the church yet...

123 days left...

I'm so excited that Brandon is going to be here in two days. But I have a feeling that it is going to be a long two days.

But on a good note, God is with me. He has always been here right beside me but now I can feel Him once again. I have a sense of renewal and commitment to Him. I know that things are going to be alright and everything is going to be okay. I don't have to worry or fret or be depressed. Life is how you think it is. I can think my life is crummy and it will be. Or I can think it is the most awesome life ever and I will have a great life despite the hard times.

124 days left...

Brandon will be arriving on Thursday. I'm so excited that he is going to be here in only three days. But I'm still crying on the inside because I miss him.

126 days left...

Yesterday, I told Brandon that I knew about his plan to surprise me by coming down early. My roommate had told me that he was planning on coming on Thursday to surprise me instead of coming on Saturday like he told me he was. Brandon was very bummed out that his surprise was ruined. I assured him that is was okay and that I wanted to know when he was coming. He said that he was still going to surprise me by doing something. He refused to let me know when he is coming down. This is like torture to me. I don't think I like surprises.

I wish I knew where he was this weekend. Last weekend he said that he was working on Saturday and Sunday. He told my friends the same thing so I don't think he was making it up. But then yesterday, via text, he told me that he was going camping with friends this weekend. He was going to be out of cell service probably but would call me if he could. But then I realized that he had work. Did he blow off his last two days to go camping with friends? Or did he blow off his last two days to drive down here to surprise me? I have no idea. I'm just worried and stressing out. But I stress out about everything these days.

I'm tired of Brandon trying to surprise me. I don't want to be surprised. I want to know where he is. I want to be able to believe him when he says that he is doing something.

I hope he is okay...

132 days left...

I didn't feel too well after brunch. I'm not sure if it was just the food or if I was dehydrated as well. I was feeling bad and so I laid down and slept for a little while. Then I stayed in bed all afternoon dozing or just thinking. I didn't feel like eating so I skipped dinner. I know I shouldn't be skipping meals but I just don't feel well. I felt a little better in the evening so I got up and did a bunch of reading for class this week. Hopefully I will feel better tomorrow.

I wish I had class tomorrow but it is Labor Day.

133 days left...

I asked another friend to be one of my bridesmaids. So now I have nine in my wedding party. My maid of honor, five bridesmaids, junior bridesmaid, and two flower girls. It is going to be so much fun.

Brandon gave his two weeks notice yesterday so he will be coming down soon. I'm glad because I miss him more and more each day. I thought about him a lot today.

135 days left...

Brandon is going to give his two weeks notice tomorrow. Then he will be able to come down and we will be together. I'm really excited! It has been way too hard to be apart this time. I hate it. I'm just praying that God will help me to keep a positive attitude until then.