77 days left...

I finalized the wording for our invitations today. I just want to run them by a couple more people including my mother next weekend. Then, I'm going to get them printed. I'm probably going to start addressing the envelopes this week. I'm thinking of doing calligraphy. But it might bore me after a while and I'll end up scribbling the last few addresses.

78 days left...

Brandon shaved off his mustache because the lady at the job he applied for said he should do so before his interview on Monday. I feel annoyed at the lady for saying that. I hope he gets the job though because it is full time and closer to where he lives than his current part-time job is. I hope they don't make him keep his mustache shaved. I really like it.

I carved my first jack o' lantern today. It was fun. I also went to watch my first volleyball game ever. My school won. I've been really tired today, and took a nap this afternoon. Tomorrow I'm going to my grandparents.

79 days left...

Wow! I miss him a lot...

He won't be coming this weekend. But at least I'll see him next weekend when I go home.

80 days left...

I've been studying for my test tomorrow and decided to take a little break to blog. It's amazing how fast the weeks go by. I only have six weeks left until I'm done with school forever. It is cool to think how close I am. I'm thankful that I'm finishing school. It is quite an accomplishment. But I'm even more thankful that I'm getting married and that I have Brandon to live the rest of my life with. I miss him terribly and it will continue to be difficult for the remaining weeks. But I know that I'm going to see him when I go home weekend after next. I might see him this weekend but it's only a small possibility.

I wish I was home doing all the things that I want to do but I'm here. It's not that bad though. I have great friends and nice classmates. This Friday I have plans to hang out and do something with three separate friends. It's going to be awesome!

I'm really looking forward to the holidays this year. More than the last few years I think. Or maybe I always look forward to them this much.

The time left until our wedding is ticking down. Each day seems to go by faster as the day approaches. A very small part of me is worried that I won't get everything done. But I know that I will. I have good friends/bridesmaids back home who are helping out a lot. Brandon is doing quite a bit too. The latest thing that he did was to make a newsletter for the bridal party and family to keep them updated on the wedding plans.

I will end with the acknowledgment that God is good. My Wednesdays have been stressful for the past few weeks. But today is the first one in a while that didn't drive me to tears. I know that God is the reason for that. He is my strength and the reason for my hope. I'm glad that I will always have Him. Forever!

82 days left...

I'm going to have two bridal showers. One on November 20th up in my hometown and the other in December down here. I feel blessed to have twice the fun. My wedding invitations arrived today. I'm so excited. Next step is to have them printed. Brandon might be coming down here this weekend. If he does, then we will begin our pre-marital counseling with my grandfather.

83 days left...

It was so good to see my family and Brandon. We had a good time hanging out and having dinner together Friday night. Brandon and I drove back to school and hung out and then went to bed. We hung out all the next day until around six when my family was leaving to go back home. I'm so glad that Brandon and I had the opportunity to hang out together this weekend.

They left the cousin's house and I headed back to school. I don't like having to say goodbye to Brandon. I'm looking forward to the day when we won't have to go for a whole week without seeing each other. They had a spin out on the freeway on the way home. My family said it was scary. My mother was screaming. My brother (who was driving) said that my mother's screaming was the scariest part of it all. But by the grace of God there was no collision. No one got hurt and the truck didn't even get a scratch. I'm so thankful that God kept them all safe. It could have ended really badly last night but they got home safely. God still works miracles.

85 days left...

I've been excited all morning in anticipation of Brandon coming down. They are about an hour away from the cousins house where we are going to be hanging out today. I'm going to leave soon to meet them there. I'm like a little kid waiting for Christmas!

86 days left...

Brandon and I have been together for seven months now. I'm excited because he will be coming down here tomorrow. I'm glad to see my family as well. I'm really looking forward to tomorrow. I got Brandon's phone charger that he left. I know that next week is going to be a lot better because we will be able to talk as long as we want to each night without worrying about his phone dying.

I had a really good day today!

87 days left...

I spent most of the day feeling sad. But then I perked up in the afternoon. My bridesmaids dresses are ordered which is great! Two of my bridesmaids are working on my bridal shower. I'm so excited. They set the date for November 20th.

88 days left...

So here I am blogging about another day being apart from Brandon. I could say that I miss him and that I can't stand being apart. But you already know that. I remember my friend saying at her wedding that the question was not if she could live with her husband but if she could live without him. They couldn't live without each other. I feel the same way about Brandon. I cannot bear the thought of being apart for much longer than we have to. I am so relieved that school will be over in eight weeks and we will not have to live in separate states or counties any longer. We will be living in the same city and when we get married, the same apartment.

Since we started dating we have spent 103 days together and 109 days apart. The 109 days apart have been mostly in separate states. I am looking forward to the day that we will be together more days than we have been apart.

89 days left...

Brandon may be coming down with my family this weekend. I'm excited because then we will all be together and he will be able to meet my mother's cousin from Germany. I miss him a lot today. I feel like half of me is missing. But only eight weeks of school left. I'm so excited that we will be together then and getting married so soon! The next things on my list is to make sure the bridesmaids have all ordered their dresses, find shoes for myself, and then get my dress altered.

90 days left...

We picked out and ordered our wedding invitations yesterday. They are white with a black decorative border. I wanted something in red but couldn't find it. I'm happy with the ones we chose though.

Brandon left today to move up to my hometown. I was hoping that I would be going up there next weekend but it looks like I'll be staying down here and celebrating my father's birthday. My parents are coming down here next weekend. I haven't even told Brandon this change of plans yet and I know that he will be disappointed. But maybe I can go home the following weekend.

92 days left...

Brandon starts his new job on Monday. I'm so happy for him. It's not good for men to be without work. We are going to be packing up his stuff today so that he can move tomorrow. I'm going to miss him but we won't be going that long without seeing each other.

We still have to choose our wedding invitations.

94 days left...

I woke up on Sunday feeling way better. My fever was totally gone. I was so happy that I was able to fully participate in my brother's wedding as a bridesmaid. I got my hair and makeup done and put on my dress. We took most of the pictures before hand. Then we arrived at the ceremony with minutes to spare. It was a beautiful wedding. I realized how amazing my own wedding will be in January. I am so looking forward to that day.

My birthday was yesterday. I spent most of the day at school and working on my paper. But then I hung out with friends and Brandon in the evening. It was a good birthday. It is crazy to think that on my next birthday I will be married.

I'm working on my paper today and hoping that I will be finished with it before too late.

98 days left...

Last night I came down with a fever and a headache. I hadn't felt very good all day and almost passed out earlier in the evening. This morning I felt worse and my fever was even higher. I've spent the day resting in bed. Right now I'm feeling a little better and hopeful for being totally well tomorrow. I really hope that I'm well enough to be a bridesmaid at my brother's wedding. But even If I'm still sick, I'm going. Nothing is going to keep me away from seeing my little brother getting married.

Brandon and I have been texting most of the day which has been a great encouragement to me.

99 days left...

I drove home last night. It was a rough drive because I was tired and having doubts. I wondered if I was strong enough and consistent enough to get married and have a family. I felt weak and lonely without Brandon. Why am I so lost and miserable without him? Do all bride-to-be's worry and fret and doubt like I do? My emotions are on this roller coaster. Do I have to gain control over myself or am just normal? Am I normal or am I an unstable person? Will I be able to enjoy my brother's wedding on Sunday and be happy for him or am I going to have another day of sadness? So many questions...

On the bright side we are down to the double digits.

100 days left...

Yesterday was a real downer. I cried almost as much as the sky did. I knew that it was mostly because I was exhausted. I had a lot of stress built up because of my test yesterday, the upcoming weekend of my brother's wedding, and assignments and a paper due next week. I still don't know exactly how I'm going to get everything done. But one thing that I'm extremely glad for is that I'll be done with school a month before my own wedding. Only nine weeks of classes left including finals week.

I'm feeling better today and emotionally stronger.

102 days left...

This weekend is going to be crazy and amazing! Brandon's friends are getting married on Saturday. My brother (#3 of us kids) is getting married on Sunday. I'm so excited for his wedding. Brandon is going to try to make it to my brother's wedding. As his wedding is approaching it has made me realize how special marriage is and how it really changes you. I'm looking forward to getting married in January and starting that new chapter in my life. Sometimes it scares me to think about how I'm committing to spending the rest of my life with someone. But then I think about Brandon and realize that I want to do just that. I can't imagine a life without him anymore.

103 days left...

I just got back from driving Brandon to the train station. He is heading out of state to his friend's wedding. I'm a little sad to see him go, but he will be back on Sunday. I'm actually surprised at how positive I feel and the fact that I didn't cry on the way back to my dorm. We had a really good day today after a great weekend so I guess that is in my mind.

Brandon is going to be taking that job near my hometown. I'm bummed out. But it is a good opportunity and a great job. They offered to start him at a little more pay than they usually do. He has a place to stay at our friend's house for free. God has really been blessing us with everything. I know that this is the best for both of us.

105 days left...

So yesterday was a little of a downer despite nailing the location down. But today has been awesome so far and will continue to be great. We met with the photographer early this morning. It was our first meeting, and I immediately liked her. I'm excited about having her photograph our wedding. She offered to do engagement pics for a small fee. We ran a whole bunch of other errands today as well. Brandon had a interview with the border's up in this area. They want to hire him but I'm hoping that he will get the job closer to my school. Thinking of him possibly living and working up here really gets me down. I feel insecure like he is leaving me. I know that this feeling is silly and that he will be visiting me as often as he has days off. But I feel really insecure still. All I can do is to hope and pray that he gets a job down near school so we can be together.

Tonight is my brother's (#4 of us kids) birthday party. He is having a beach bonfire!

106 days left...

This weekend has been exciting because we booked the site for our wedding ceremony and reception. I'm glad that we can have dancing at the church. We are going to meet with the photographer tomorrow morning to talk details and sign the contract. I'm happy that things are falling into place so easily. When stuff happens like this I know that God is with us and that we have a lot of blessings. Next item on the list is to order invitations.