I drove home last night. It was a rough drive because I was tired and having doubts. I wondered if I was strong enough and consistent enough to get married and have a family. I felt weak and lonely without Brandon. Why am I so lost and miserable without him? Do all bride-to-be's worry and fret and doubt like I do? My emotions are on this roller coaster. Do I have to gain control over myself or am just normal? Am I normal or am I an unstable person? Will I be able to enjoy my brother's wedding on Sunday and be happy for him or am I going to have another day of sadness? So many questions...
On the bright side we are down to the double digits.
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