46 days left...

I've been sick since Saturday night. It is discouraging to be sick again. I wish that I could have just skipped this sickness because I have so much to do. The bummer thing is that what I have to do this week involves going out and watching senior fitness classes. But I can't do that while I am coughing up a storm. I also had to miss my internship this morning. We aren't allowed to go in while we are sick. Hopefully I am better by Thursday so I can get everything done. I know that things will work out and I will be done with school soon. In two weeks from tomorrow I will take my last final. In two weeks from Saturday I will be home for Christmas. I know I'm supposed to be enjoying these last weeks of school. But it's hard to when I'm sick and not feeling good. I just want to be home.

47 days left...

I used to wear my purity ring on my left hand. It reminded me of God's love and what He did for me so that I could be considered pure in His eyes. It also reminded me of my promise to Him and to my future husband. Now I wear my engagement ring. It reminds me of Brandon's love for me. It reminds me of everything that Brandon gave up gladly for me. It also reminds me of my promise to him and his promise to me and that we are getting married soon. I am blessed to have his love.

49 days left...

Sometimes love is tested. But true love, when tested, never fails.

52 days left...

I spent quite a bit of time today working on invitations. I have now addressed all the invitations except for twenty-two. The twenty-two consist of friends at school and incomplete addresses. I will finish those up in the next few days hopefully. I mailed a bunch of invites today and am planning on dropping the rest into a post office box tonight.

I still have a bunch of things that I need to organize and get done. But it will have to wait until December.

Brandon and I are driving down to my grandparents tonight. We are all going to be celebrating Thanksgiving together. I'm looking forward to seeing family and hanging out with them tomorrow and during the weekend as well.

54 days left...

My Thanksgiving break has been mostly good so far. My bridal shower was awesome and I've spent a lot of time with family and friends. Brandon and I have had a quite a bit of time together as well.

We bought our rings today. They are being engraved and will be ready for pick up in December. We are having "Love never fails" engraved into our rings. I'm so excited about them. They are simple but will mean so much to us when we exchange them at our wedding. It is crazy to think that we are going to wear those rings for the rest of our lives. Yeah, buying the rings meant a lot to me today.

I still have so much to do and so little time. I don't think that I will be able to accomplish everything that I would like to. But that is okay because I still have time in December, once I graduate, to finish things like cleaning and organizing my room. That is a huge project that will take a few days or maybe even a whole week.

59 days left...

Today was really busy with class, test, lunch, another test, break and then class. My professor was talking about thinking positively and how it affects the brain. She also talked about anxiety and depression. For some reason I left class feeling bummed and depressed. Depression is a new emotion to me. I'm not used to it and at first it scared me. But in class today I realized that I have only experienced a small amount of depression. For some people it consumes them. I'm thankful that I don't deal with that much.

I'm missing Brandon a lot right now. We just talked on the phone for a few minutes but I want to be with him. Only 26 hours left. I've been keeping an hour countdown the whole day.

Right now I'm so tired that I could cry. I wish my Thanksgiving break would be more restful but it's going to be busy and involves a LOT of driving before the holiday itself. My schedule for the break looks like this:

Friday: sleep in, laundry, dojo
Saturday: Bridal Shower and my little brother's birthday party
Sunday: Church and family time
Monday: Chiropractor and possibly swing dancing with Brandon, work on homework
Tuesday: Hang out with friends or get stuff done around the house
Wednesday: Pack and drive down to spend Thanksgiving with extended family
Thursday: Thanksgiving
Friday and Saturday: Hangout with family and homework
Sunday: Church and my grandmother's birthday party, head back to school

60 days left...

Today was a rough day. I woke up really congested and not feeling well. But I felt better after a shower and breakfast. I went to my internship and succeeded in not coughing or sneezing the whole morning while I was there. I don't want to spread my germs around but I also needed the hours. I felt better for most of the afternoon. But then I really tuckered out around dinner time. Dinner was really good. I ate a lot and am now feeling really sleepy. I still have to study for my test tomorrow. So I'll be doing that and looking forward to talking to Brandon tonight.

I hope I'll be feeling better by Thursday...

61 days left...

I'm still sick so I spent most of the day resting after class this morning. I hope I'm better by tomorrow. I need the hours for my internship. There's not that much school left. I only have two and half weeks after Thanksgiving. Then I'll be home in Nipomo for good. I'm looking forward to being able to dedicate myself to our wedding planning.

Only three days until I go home for Thanksgiving break.

62 days left...

Our weekend together was really nice. We hung out on Friday and then watched a movie with friends. On Saturday we had pre-marital counseling and spent most of the day with my grandparents. Then we celebrated a friend's birthday. Brandon left early this morning to be back in time for work this afternoon. I was sad to see him go but it was easier on me this time. Unfortunately, I have a stuffy nose. I've been resting most of the day but I spent a couple hours with my older brother. We had a good time hanging out and talking over coffee and tea. I hope I'm better by tomorrow.

65 days left...

I finished addressing all of my extended family's invitations and stuffed them. I just need to seal them, put on stamps and they are ready. I went to buy stamps today but the post office was closed because of Veteran's Day. I'm looking forward to getting the rest of the invitations done.

I picked up my veil today. It's very pretty and I can't wait to try it out with my hairdo. Hopefully this will happen soon.

I missed Brandon a lot today. I know that I'm going to see him in less than 24 hours but I still miss him right now.

I calculated my GPA as if I got all A's this semester and found out that there is no way that I'm graduating with honers. That's fine though. It's not like I needed good grades, they were just a personal goal of mine. And since I'm coming really close to that goal, I can still be proud of myself. I'm glad that this semester is almost over and that I'm graduating!

Christmas is going to be extra special this year.

66 days left...

Jack, the dog, came back safely.

Brandon is coming down the day after tomorrow. I'm really looking forward to seeing him. We are having our first pre-marital counseling session on Saturday. Then he has to head back home because he's working on Sunday. It will be a short visit but I'm glad that he can come down. I'll be going home the following weekend.

I don't have class tomorrow so I'm going to work on addressing envelopes and might even go buy some stamps and send the first batch off. My veil has arrived so I'm going to be picking it up as well.

Earlier today I contemplated going to grad school. But then I realized that no matter how ambitious that sounds it is not what I want to do. There are way more important things and life is too short.

67 days left...

I don't understand some people. For them, marriage is low on their list of priorities, something to do later down the road. I had someone tell me that I had my whole life ahead of me and getting married was something that I could do later. She made it sound like it was a shame that I was getting married in January. I always wanted to get married. I'm excited that I'll be marrying Brandon in a little more than two months. Yes, it is soon. Yes, it might even be crazy. But why wait? I don't understand why people would want to wait.

On another note. I'm feeling really bad for Brandon right now. He ran over the dog of the family that he is staying with. The dog ran off and they can't find him. I hope he is alright.

68 days left...

Leaving last night was terrible. I cried quite a bit. It was worse leaving Brandon and my family than it has been before. The drive seemed really long and I cried out loud and prayed and listened to music. I feel better today. I realized that being depressed and devastated is not going to change anything and will only make me feel crummy. I guess that I'm the only one that has control over my attitude. I miss him a lot right now but I know that we will be spending this weekend together. I'm looking forward to him coming down on Friday. He has a job interview which is really exciting. I hope he gets the job. I'm going to be working on addressing envelopes later this week and next week. But for now I must study for my test day after tomorrow.

Only four and half weeks of school left.

69 days left...

I picked up our invitations yesterday. They look really nice. They have one mistake. The RSVP date says December 18, 2011. I'm going to just change it to 2010 with a pen. It's not a big enough mistake to get them reprinted. And it is on the little card not the invite itself so it's not that big of a deal.

I'm not looking forward to going back to Fullerton this evening.

70 days left...

We visited the florist yesterday and talked about flowers for our wedding. It was fun! But I really don't have much of a preference for what flowers I want. My homework is to look online and see what I like.

We got our invitations printed. They are waiting to be picked up.

Brandon and I have had a good weekend so far together. We spent all yesterday together but today we won't see each other until this evening. I had a belt test to judge at the dojo and he has work right now. I would go visit him at work later this afternoon but I'm going to a birthday party.

71 days left...

Today is going to be fun. Wedding planning and hanging out with Brandon. Right now it's just chill time until he comes over and my mother gets up and ready to go. It's amazing how quite the house is this morning after all the chatter and excitement of my arrival last night. It's good to be home. But it feels weird to be the only one up besides Daddy who went to work a while ago.

I left my phone charger in my dorm room. I could kick myself. Well, I guess I'll turn off my phone today and save it for the drive back to school. My car's check engine light came on and off a couple times last night. It's probably nothing but I would hate to break down with a dead cell phone battery. I really do depend on technology.

72 days left...

I'm excited! In just about eight hours I'll be home, Brandon will be off work, and we'll be hanging out together.

In six weeks I'll be done with school and moved back home.

74 days left...

I'm so excited right now! Two and a half months until our wedding! Time is passing by faster which is good. I'm really looking forward to our special celebration.

I bought my wedding shoes yesterday. I took a couple of international students with me and we shopped around until we found exactly what I want. This afternoon I went to try on veils with a good friend. I made my decision, ordered my veil and bought the blusher. I'm so excited that I have my whole wedding outfit. I just need to pick out my jewelery. I'm getting my dress altered in December.

Two days until I go home and see Brandon!